Sheri Teh Min Ru
Monday, June 30, 2008
today is such a lousy day for me.
i feel like nonsense.
the wholeday through, i had no idea what i was talking about,
i just mumbled, & stumbled upon my words,
didnt feel like talking.
i wanna thank best friend ZHITING! (:
for really the one there for me today,
really cheering me up with her jokes & retardedness.
i think im such a LOSER man.
like seriously. the matter hasnt even gotten to the worst yet
& here i am letting out my water bank like a dam.
why am i so silly & so easily given in to my emotions?
i guess im just scared. of gng. i dont wanna face him.
i dont wanna be screamed at by him.
im so pathetic man. seriously.
& how i wished everything could be settled today.
why does he have to wait til tmrw?
): do i have to go through the same thing tmrw again?
i really hope not.
if i had a wish now, i would wish for confidence.
oh heavenly father, please give me confidence.
please. ): its what i really need now.
i can plan out one whole speech but when it comes down to the real thing,
im like a stammerwoodblock.
why? i need confidence. really.
i dont seem to have any control over my emotions anymore.
sighs.
anyway, thanks to my lovely clique for the comfort & warmth,
thanks to hakim, billy, leon, gengyi, daniel...
for the support. {: appreciate it!
aahhh, my eyes feel very sore & tired now.
after school, supposedly was supposed to look for mr gng but he was busy, so..
then i went back to the canteen, then heard that qijun looking for me
so went back to foyer,
found out that ipw wasnt done yet,
listened to mr lim's nagging for a while,
then went to library with jerlyn, huiying, zhiting & yanting to 'studyy'.
but inthe end ended up taking pictures and the 3 went to research on hot soccer players.
huh. nothing better to do uh.
lame people. (:
after that, huiying & I went to econs to buy that seaweed chips. (:
hahahahha, silly pig.
then we went to white sands & ate BEN & JERRY-s! :D
& ya-kun! lols.
then we went to popular to get my cards & a silver pen but
bloody hell, that silver pen had no ink when i tried it out just now.
aaaahhh! 1.75 wasted man! ):
suppose to save really hard this week but look what happened.
hah.
anyway, time spent with huiying cheered me up
although i didnt know what to say, mumbled, stammered.
my mind's still over excessed, so im closing it for now.
& i left my math textbk outside the sch library.
& nobodys there to get it for me.
most probably itll be stolen AGAIN.
): my mum's so gonna kill me.
GAH.
WHAT AN AWESOME DAY. ):
too tired to blade.
& thank you yantin for what you said just now. {:
god has already planned out my life, & he wants the best for me,
so i should not worry & face it with courage . (:
i'll pray, & believe. (:
i found a bible . :D